baby, its not the same

It has been a while. My apologies.

I reckon the times we shared are not judged based on the quantity of it but of the quality of it. There have been quite a few obstacles this month. Me, being me, definitely have my way or two of curbing/overcoming these obstacles. Others, not so much. I am alright if you need my two cents worth or need a listening ear. However, it have to come to a point where you either figure things out yourself, or heed my advice. I cannot keep listening to your complains because "life is short, move on",

Looking at photos of the happier times makes me wonder why don't everyone sit their asses down, and find the root of all evil? Eliminate the bad and you have the good, or simply be the friend who everyone wants to have and trash it out. I never like walking away from a problem but it really takes two hands to clap. If you think you can salvage it, why dont you do it? There has to be a limit nonetheless. That's up to one to decide where that said limit lies. Walk away with no regrets if you must.

Guilt trippin' is just stooping down to a level of I despise you.

The lack of motivation to pen down my thoughts has caused me to be really bad at writing. It seems that the vocab I once had is gone, and all that I've left is basic grammar and primary school list of words. I need to start reading and find my mojo back. I AM A MASS COMM GRAD FOR GOODNESS SAKE. Sometimes, I am just soooo disappointed at myself. I also need to find some me alone time - to find myself again.

I am a very emotional person, truth be told. I cry at every little touching story I hear and every scene in a romantic movie. As long as a character is in tears, you prolly catch me in tears too. That's beside the point. The point is I am greatly affected by everyone's actions. I chose not to show it. But secretly, whenever I see the happier past, I am like "why did yall change?" "why can't yall remain good together?".

People change, things change. Some go with the flow, others get led by the nose. Do you see the irony? Idk how to end this entry. I am just so sick and tired of pretentious beings. Okay, bye.

1 world music festival cancelled 2 days before event. THE FUCK IS WRONG?

So annoyed. So so so annoyed. Who the fuck does contests, builds up the hype and have people forgoing Hardwell and F1 gigs just so that they can fucking cancel the music festival 2 days before the event? Sickos. People who are fucked in their brains.

I know its not easy on the organisers as well. All the refunds they got to do, the PR they got to do to keep everyone calm, and the fact that they will get boycotted for future events they (an Australian company) plan to organise in +65. I reckon its not something they expect to happen. However, the masses are not as understanding, especially those who are flying down to catch 60 acts in 2 days.

Okay, I didnt count if there are 60 acts but a source was telling me that out of 60 acts, only 31 were confirmed. I am guessing out of the 31 confirmed, 28 of them are local acts.

Here, from Iggy Azalea's twitter, I gathered that she was one of the few acts who were pending and only agreed to perform after 17th Sept. Heng, she havent flew to Singapore and why couldnt the organisers explain to her?! Something smells fishy.

Then, I got bored and decided to google twitter accounts of whom I wanted to check out. The last time I saw Cobra Starship was at the first Singfest and I am very ready to watch them live again. But, they didnt mention anything about coming to Singapore on twitter. I wonder if Moby is here already. Hmm...

And, there were some licensing issues and tickets sales quota not met. Around 4k tickets were unsold, I heard. Seriously, you place your events to clash with F1 and Hardwell, and expect it to be sold out event? WHO CAN GIVE UP WATCHING RIHANNA AND JUSTIN BIEBER FOR SNOOP DOG/LION OR SEZAILI SEZARI? Right, now I am just making fun. Ha ha, I am so funny. Justin Bieber.

In all honesty thou, I am not pissed at all. I got the tickets for free and am packed to the brim for this weekend. I was so worried about my schedule; first YEC meeting, dodgeball, International Deaf Day, food tasting plus I still got classes to teach. I can't wait to breathe after Sign Language exam happening in a few hours. You do know that this is me trying to update you with my life so that I dont sound like I have nothing to do yet I dont update this space. Well, I know I fail.

There are some updates of course but meanwhile, here is a photo of how I look like now:

Very auntie-like, I know. I got that bruise from dodgeball the other day. It expanded to the size of my fist now. Clumsy toad is me.

Racism

After watching an anti racism awareness video from this < http://www.upworthy.com/a-boy-makes-anti-muslim-comments-in-front-of-an-american-soldier-the-soldiers-reply-priceless> website, I find it extremely inspiring that people are standing up against racism. Especially when the soldier stood up for the cashier. He is truly one to be respected. When you're placed in a situation where you are trying to recover from the loss of comrades on the battlefield and facing your enemies who have a different religion from you, it's difficult to remain neutral but ever easy to form biased judgements against them. However, yet he realizes the true meaning behind his fighting - peace and equality. (However, this does not represent my stand against the war with Syria as that is entirely two different matters.)

Racism can't never be done away with like how we can never do away with people who are quick to judge. Human nature tends to be quick to judge but not to understand. But then again, how many times can we understand before we are conformed by the circumstances that forces us to judge almost immediately. If we see someone acting shady and using the shadows as their cover, we immediately become alert of our belongings but what if he or she was just a shy individual? However, the fact that we all just want to play safe and place ourselves first mean racism can never go away. In fact, many other selfish behaviors that arise from this will never go away and humanity can never attain peace completely. 

This entry is just how I feel about racism briefly.... Earnestly, I pray that we can do away with racism eventually because we are all equal beings and colors are not meant to be used for discrimination and in my belief, Christianity, God did not give us colors as a mean to judge and discriminate. If so, then we would not be just brown, yellow or white. I believe there would be so much more. 

And yes, I will stop procrastinating about my make up entry but I just felt that this is so much more important..

Signing off,

XT9A