Friday, July 30, 2010

Ha, I blog before you

Last night, I had a dream. The kind of dream I dream in reality as well. This feels like Inception. My dream was my 3rd degree, the first being reality. I wasn't always this size. I started gaining weight when I was 16, fresh from GCE 'N' Levels. I found fried mars bars and yup, you guessed it, for 3 months, I had it everyday for dessert.

Managed to put on 6kg.

I, then, tell myself never to go beyond 60kg. I was 56kg, standing at 166cm. After years of not exercising, being happy, sad and any other emotions, I am what I am today. Not afraid to tell you, I'm 65.2kg (the last time I weigh myself was last friday at Cheryl Fong's attic), still standing at 166cm. I lost 3kg. It didnt feel like I lost anything because I feel fat everytime I wear clothes. I feel like I dont look good.

Aza cheered me up once by saying I actually look good, not too skinny nor too huge. Im, in fact, average and just nice. Maybe because I have boobs so almost all men say the same. Or they are just merely being nice.

So I wake up from my dream. First time I said to myself is Let's go for a jog. It was 8am and raining. Of course, I fell back to sleep. The point is, I suck.


Mimi said...

heya hunny, Its Ichigoshortcake ^3^

Cute blog! xx (honeybear1)


Morning always comes too early! Hang in there, my friend! LADYHIGHTOWER Swap-Bot blog Me, Baby!

Kathy said...

Interesting blog!

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Dirty Girl Art said...

Aww sugar..You don't suck. And yes, because you have boobs, men will say anything. I wonder if men had breasts like women, would the world change. Have a good day. Wolfeagle

Robotgranny said...

Mimi, thanks <3

Ladyhightower, I hate mornings =[

Kathy, thank you.

Dirty girl art, hope you come back to see this but i cant find your swap bot user. i think them men will enjoy them boobs. hahahaha.

Ms.Lovender said...

You don`t suck. :)

Have a wonderful day!

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Ariel Bouvier said...

Loving this blog!

peace & love,

Ariel17/Swap-Bot/Blog Me, Baby

Maria Isabel said...

I think the dream was telling you that deep down you know you look good, and should not be so hard on yourself!
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