When our boyfriends..

"BMT is not what you leave behind. It is what you gain in the days ahead."

My stupid boy still with hair.

My stupid boy came home to me with super short hair.

heart my stupid boy.

…serve the nation, government should also come out with a plan for the girlfriends. Maybe they can hold courses such as How To Not Miss Your Boyfriend or How To Spend Your Time When He's Serving His Nation. Or here's another idea; what about allowing us, the girlfriends, spend the first 2 weeks with them as a form of motivation? All in favour say 'Aye'!

Online Shopping? Meh.

Not a paid advert.

I don't know about you but I personally feel that it is a hassle to shop online. And that is only because I often misplace my iBanking device and finding it only after the spree closes. I eventually gave up online shopping also because of the wait and I don't know when will it arrive at my doorstep.

Then, jengjengjeng, along came Mojoavenue! It is set up by my best friend of 14 years and his sister. They started off by selling handmade rings at flea markets and because sales and response were good, they took the next step into the WWW. Now, they also bring in clothes. So not exactly your typical LiveJournal/Blogger online website for they took a different route. Like a marketing person, they market their products and survey the market before launching yet-another blogshop. You might have guess it but what I am trying to say it: THEY KNOW WHAT YOU ARE THINKING.

Mojoavenue concentrates on bringing you rings that are entirely unique and outstanding. Its not bold nor too loud but its just nice and you know you want it.

Its never seen before and still you know you want it.

These rings captures your eyes right? Well, guess what, it will captures the eye of others too.

If your ring happen to go through any mishaps and it couldn't survive, have no fear Mojoavenue is here. Send it back and they will fix it. However, so far nothing bad happened but providing you this service means they are not afraid. Muahahaha.

Oh look, tea cup!

They bring in dresses and t-shirts. These are the two I want to get from them but I dont have the time to go down for fitting because I am not a one size fits all person :((

Hey look, buttons. So you can see, it is really a one shop hub. Now, here's the best part. They do international shipping as well and …. my readers get a special discount. Not telling you how great the discount is so free feel to email them! Visit them at Mojoavenue now.

Fat kid on Rollercoaster

Pictures of you, Pictures of me.

What did you dream about last night?

Oh my lord. I dreamt of bunny ears ahbeng. He was coming closer to me and I thought he wanted to lay a finger on me but he moved to April and slapped her instead. I got so angry, I summon all the plants to attack him. Kinda like Sky High the movie.

Ask me anything and this is not a comment box.

What's your favorite sport?

currently, running for bus. Because thats the only sport I ever get to do these days.

on other days, I always love high jump. Did you know: I was a 2 times champion in YHSS? Once in 1st year, the other in 3rd year. I got a bronze for 2 year though and that was because I was late for the competition. Then, they removed high jump in my 4th and 5th year. My personal record was 4 and a half feet, back then. Only a couple of guys could jump over that.

Cuban High Jumper, Javier Sotomayor, clearing the indoor world record of 7ft 11 1/2in.(2.43m) March 4th, 1989 His outdoor record is 8ft 1/2in. Im only 3 feet away from him. lol

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Ken Lim without you

I finally have a boyfriend who serves the National Slavery. He who pampers me, showers me with non stop love and it just feels like I've lost my right hand. Koh is someone who I do almost everything with. He's an unspeakable best fwen and one who I appreciate only when missing.

I bid my goodbyes to Koh. Gave him one final hug, kiss and wave. Off he went to be a man that he already is. Then, I realize things are going to be different. I prefer shitting when Koh is in the toilet with me. It helps me shit better. So who's going to sign up for that job?

It felt so darn lonely to shower alone. I've got mushrooms in my bao but no one take out for me or no one I can feed the mushroom to. We usually head back to the room slightly before 11pm, today I waited till the show ended. No one help me take fruits and no one to tell jokes to while watching TV. What if I want to smoke in the middle of the night? No one to go with. Overnight, I lost my spoon, my cuddle and my cook.

I am lone ranger, wondering soul in main land. Everyone else is happy and couple-ly but me. If Tekong got one month course, I'd be first to sign up.

What's the point..

.. Of using rhyme when you don't have proper diction? - Chaz Ali.

People with bad english enjoy doing diss tracks. Can anyone please enlighten me? How can anyone's english be so horrible. If your first language is not English, you are forgiven but hello, you live in SinGaPore euUu nOeS? I am not talking about Chaz Ali. I started this entry with that because of the sentence; the words. Read on and you will find out.

Honestly, I am a general people hater and I don't expect people to like me at all. I am, after all, loud (and annoying) and not everyone can except that. But what one do not know is:" If I react differently from how you will react, that doesn't make me weird. That will only make me, not you. Just because someone is out of the norm, does not make he/she an outcast. He/She is just, well, not you."

I understood that but only practice it to a certain extent. You have to agree with me because you are only human. We all dislike. We all diss. We all gossip. We all talk. Most of us are closet sadist. We are happy at the expense of someone's misery.

Eg. I laugh at Cher (almost) all the time because 1) she's my BFF so I can. 2)weirdly, I laugh at her so she can step up her game. 3)that goes to show how awesome a BFF she is because although I laugh at her, she still gives me kitty hugs.

You are different. We laugh at you because we are highly amused. You are like our drug. We get high on you. The bad use of English Language, haughtiness and 'stylish' attire. Heaven, help us. Eventually you will burn our eyes so we rather laugh it out loud and enjoy while we still can.

Back to what Chaz said: "Whats the point of having rhymes when you don't have proper diction." When you are rapping and not articulating your words, no one understands you. When you want to say something in bad English and you think its cute, then, think again. I think if you want to rebut someone, you firstly need to do your research, know the facts, plan and spread out what you going to say so you will not end up saying:'Childish acts' to end the conversation, type/speak proper so as to get the message across and come out with a good conclusion to wrap up your debate.

Easy peasy. If I have the time, I'd write out a lesson plan for you, complete with readings.

Oh btw, you do not have proper diction so do not try to act all slang-y. And you think I don't know but every time you speak, you always look at my direction. Either you are checking K and T out or seeking my approval of what came out from that hole. Woman, you need no approval from me. You are not in my family tree (no pun intended, guys). The more you have shifty eyes, the more I feel you are insecure. Why? You got Shrek not enough ah? Want to feed him more? Make sure you still got money to do degree after shopping at Sheng Shiong.

FYI, your trimming is like putting extensions. Tell me your language in advance so I will be able to communicate with you. After all, we are comms students and we are supposed to learn 5 languages so why not teach me yours? At least when no one understands you, I do.

Got this off The-Miracle-Season

What say you?

whats tumblr to you?

A place where people repost what people repost.

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What was the happiest moment in your life?

When I left NAFA. Honestly, the best decision I made for my life.

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Ha, I blog before you

Last night, I had a dream. The kind of dream I dream in reality as well. This feels like Inception. My dream was my 3rd degree, the first being reality. I wasn't always this size. I started gaining weight when I was 16, fresh from GCE 'N' Levels. I found fried mars bars and yup, you guessed it, for 3 months, I had it everyday for dessert.

Managed to put on 6kg.

I, then, tell myself never to go beyond 60kg. I was 56kg, standing at 166cm. After years of not exercising, being happy, sad and any other emotions, I am what I am today. Not afraid to tell you, I'm 65.2kg (the last time I weigh myself was last friday at Cheryl Fong's attic), still standing at 166cm. I lost 3kg. It didnt feel like I lost anything because I feel fat everytime I wear clothes. I feel like I dont look good.

Aza cheered me up once by saying I actually look good, not too skinny nor too huge. Im, in fact, average and just nice. Maybe because I have boobs so almost all men say the same. Or they are just merely being nice.

So I wake up from my dream. First time I said to myself is Let's go for a jog. It was 8am and raining. Of course, I fell back to sleep. The point is, I suck.

A whisper

You got me on a hook; an itch only you can scratch .

Kids say the darnest things!

Nigel Ng has always been the apple of my eye, the cheese to my pasta. We might be 12 years apart but I'm glad I can always be silly with him. It's like I never grow up when I'm home.

Raining is it today, I decided to wear sheer stockings . I'm bend on protecting it because it's my last one left. Rather, I want it to last the whole time in school.

Nigel came home and said: " why is your leg black?" He looked completely confused. You wouldn't blame his lack of 'fashion sense' because he's 9 and because all he has is an older sister and 2 older brothers. I isn't exactly the Girly girl and my mum is always in pants.

I said: "I went tanning." trying to look all so serious and it was like tanning gone wrong.

Nigel, being really smart, went to pull my stockings. "No. It's not. If it's your leg, you will have feel the pain when I pull it."

"ouch! Don't pull my skin!" was my immediate response to that.

"why is it that your hands are not black?"
'well, I tanned my legs only.'
"don't bluff. What is it, jiejie?" while still pulling it

'ouch ouch ouch. Stop. Very painful!!'

This is how I look like when I am surfing the net.

Schoolastic

Hi, today is my first time having school on a bloody Sunday. It's shit because I've school from Monday to Sunday. It's shitter because the lecturer gives us assignments on Saturday to be completed on Sunday. What's the shittest is it's the weekends; no more party-ing like a dog and having hangover.

I had too much to drink at work on Friday and went to school with a slight hangover on Saturday. Last night I had awesome fun with primary school friends and came back only at 4 to complete 50% of the assignments. I'm so dead.

What's new is I lost my touch on journalism and it's not funny because it's newscasting class this week. Sucks to be me.

End of weekends rants. Bye.

I could be chasing but my time will be wasted.

Words. Sentences. Phrases. One-liners. Communication.

Plenty to say to you but hardly any idea where to start. I was telling Shikeen that I'd love to remember how we exchange our first sentences, how we exchange our first text message. I sat down and thought hard.

***

You were there. Level 6. White tee, blue jeans. Black rimmed glasses. Body turned to the back, explaining to the Marshall and Barney of the class the theory of the lesson. Distracted, I look up and said: "You sure?" That, was the first time I look into your eyes for a quick second.

***

Shy. I regretted that thought. See, wish like this should not be granted.

Inception. A dream within a dream within a dream. Ya, thats how it feels.

I don't remember how we first exchange numbers but I believe you were the one who sent me a text first. A phone message conversation that got me into trouble. Occasion how-are-yous. Random updates. / I-miss-yous. How-is-your-days. Talks about life -past, present, future. I-am-thinking-of-yous. Long walks. / 13hours intervals. short. blah. 2 days interval. MIA.

Thank you for the experience. Thank you for your time. Thank you for everything. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. You made me feel like a fool. You put me out on the stool. I was blind. I was fine. Till I meet you. If I ever speak to you again, it will only be because of the awkwardness presence. Because we have mutual friends. Because I have to.

[While doing this entry, I had tons of pauses. I didn't know how to express myself properly and had the thought of discontinuing the entry. Then, these:

"#ZodiacFacts As a #Gemini Why keep things bottled up? You're not a soda can! Shake things up a little. " - ZodiacFacts via web

" #ZodiacFacts As a #Gemini you love normalcy, but pretending nothing happened does not make things normal after the breakup." - ZodiacFacts via web

pop into the top right hand corner of my screen. I believe it is a sign.]

After this entry, I vow not to think about you and completely take you out of my mind, body and soul. Okay, my facebook, handphone and soul.

" As much as a BFF can make you go WTF. There's no denying that we will be a little less rich without them." - Gossip Girl

Big Hair You are Beautiful

I want to do something with my hair. Its been too straight for my liking for many years now. I dont like tong-ing my hair every time before I leave to meet my friends because 1) it doesnt last 2) I end up being late all the time 3) I lazy. Hence therefore thus, I want to do the digital perm. I like the 1st and 2nd picture. Gonna do the perm base on that I think. Hopefully, it will not ruin the extensions !

Not the woman with 20 cats

So Cheryl made Sling and Sling made me see this. Honestly, I never seen anything quite like that. I declare myself not a catlady and will never be one of those old lonely women living in a house with 20 of these little things. Because they dont entertain me with their looks.

Pop and roll

You know how it feels when you want to go against something but no matter how hard you try, you end up giving in? The feeling sucks.

Because uncertainly is the issue. It may turn out good but most of the time, it brings regret.

I want to be able to turn back time, don't we all. I won't be having major heartche/headche like this and hving you on my mind for an hour seems like a day to me; 24hrs feels like 24 days.

When will I be able to get out from this and why did I get myself in this shithole of a mess?

Star light, star bright

Wish I may. Wish I might. Have the wish I wish tonight.

I wish this will all end. My cough, my flu.

Most of all, my temptation to see you, hold you, kiss you, text you, call you.

Butter Pops

Its been a month since Aza and I pop out at Poptart@Butter. Our favourite place to be where guestlists are attainable at ease, crazy indie music and flattering drinks.

Birthday kids

also birthday girl but a few years difference.

Nong time no see, DX and I cannot recognise him without his hair.

Primary school friend whom I fail to recognise also. Sorry, Xue Yuan!

BFF

Izzy princess.

Pauman

21 and late

for Aidan

What's your most frequently used words or tag lines?

*inputs a horse string full of Hokkien words

Ask me anything and this is not a comment box.

what was your favourite subject in secondary school?

I hate to admit this but Design and Technology was my favourite. Cher, why are you embarrassing me?

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You may say so

I don't like having too much time on my hands. I've always been working part time and schooling full time. For the last 6 months, I am been only schooling because daddy decided to secretly upp my pocket money then, hinting me to not work part time. I am, also, been lazy. This must stop, pronto.

So I decided to take up a 2nd diploma (thanks to Cheryl Fong) part time while doing my current full time diploma. The next 10 months is going to be hectic and I believe I can handle it. I won't have free time on my hands so friends and family, please bare with me.

10 months + 2 diplomas = Celine is insane.

If you could have a super power, what would it be?

I want to read minds.

Ask me anything and this is not a comment box.

90th

Yesterday, I realize no one will treat me better than how Koh treated me yet I refuse to give in and get back with him. I don't want to be selfish because there is nothing left I can put on the table in this relationship. Everyone else was right. We shouldn't have started to begin with.

There was so much love but it couldn't conquer the madness fights and the endless arguments. They say "once you lose it then you will cherish it". Ever since we broke up, Koh has been showing me more care and concern. That actually made me feel that all boys are the same; Major Dickheads. Kukus who are nice to you when chasing you, average or close to zero attention given to you when together and extra sincere to you when chasing you back. The cycle repeats.

What we had was an unhealthy relationship. We never once got into the root of the problem. Koh's famous line throughout these 10 months was: "Let's pretend its all a dream". Then, he does something sweet and everything is a-ok. We don't have what you call levels of anger. Whoever's angry will start shouting, throwing things, slamming doors and walking out. Ya, if you think Koh is never the angry type, you think again. See, that's why I say its better to be friends with Koh than his girlfriend.

I am fighting hard to stay friends with Koh first. I think even if I want to forgive him, I should not jump straight from where we left off. I honestly cannot believe that our journey might end just here. We are not the most likable couple on earth and this might have been a mistake but I know, for sure, I loved Koh.

WANT!

Olympus PEN E-PL1

REALLY LA!

Its pretty annoying how I tend to neglect a blog after some time and only returning when I have rants or any displease to anyone. This has to stop, pronto!

Just an update thou:

1) Just ended my exams - hopefully to get a pass for each modules. I think I screwed Individual Assignments up because well, I was too lazy. I just want a pass so I can proceed on to doing my Diploma already. "Hello, I want to move on with Life already. Please get the hint."

2) Organizing my time so wisely that every long forgotten friend has a slot before next semester starts - My first week went well and I only got Friday left unbooked for this week. I am suppose to slot in 'Dinner with Ori and Cher' but Cher has yet to tell me her work schedule.

3) Handle my love life in a way that I do not get hurt - Nothing to really reveal. I am just being selfish here. If you are a good friend who has always been with me or have twitter, you prolly know what is going on. Meanwhile, I heart Koh still.

4) Level up on baking skills - I never tried baking cupcakes so I decided to ask Intan for it. She even gave me the recipe for cupcake icing! It was an success. Will like to offer you one but my brothers wipe everything off and all I left is some for Dom's birthday celebration. I cant cook but I sure can bake you something nice.

5) Internet friend - I have a couple of close friends that I met from Friendster (technically, Cher, that's you) and myspace (IZZY LOVE LOVE YOU SHOO LONG). So you can actually trust the internet. I am going to meet Chelle from Swap-bot this wed for lunch! Passing her one of the swap at the same time.

That's about it, I guess. My life isnt as interesting as you think it is. I just inject tons of drama in it because I am cool like that. While you are at it, have an awesome life (Y)

Stop twitting because no one wants to read your sob story

Since young, I've never been the kind to ask my parents for extra cash even if I know I could. I'd make sure I tell them what's the extra cash for (books, driving, etc) then take the exact amount. Many a times, my mum forgets abt giving me cash and I just pay my own if it's a small amount (like less than 20).

Since young, I also know my mum treats money very seriously. She's the ultimate money face. She can think that chewing gum is 5$ and not move from her seat. And when no one looking then check it out.

Now I'm 21. I knew that since young, it's right to not let your parents worry (about money) and she is still a money face.

Here I have in my room. Empty packets of angbaos. Where's the cash? Easy. In my mums pocket.

I am piss because I didn't agree to let her have everything. I am piss because I entertain from table to table, put up a show for everyone and not being able to keep all my gifts. I am piss because despite she knowing I am piss, she still took all the money and not live me any.

Fyi, she wasn't the only one paying for my party. I used up most of my pocket money and is dead broke. Was kinda hoping the angbaos will tide me over the month. I have my bills to pay (which I tell my dad is under control so he don't have to worry), driving to learn, TP to pay for (car rental and license), bus rides and MRT rides to pay for.

I gave up. It's impossible to survive without a job. I bring home the same amount as what my dad gives me now (in order for me to quit my previous job) but I have less time for friends and entertainment.

Being 21 is not easy. I cried on my birthday because Koh was being an asshole (no, he didn't make up for that), I had to be mean to service staff because it wasn't perfect enough, I just turn single, I have a pair of pretty heels not my size and I'm broke. Dead broke. GST money not even going to help me.

If I stay on the 3rd floor, id jump from there. To experiment if one will die from each heights. If I die, my time is up. Life has been horrible to me. The only time I'm really happy is when I'm w Koh but it's no longer possible to have that now. I thought my life has taken an u-turn ever since I met him in aug.

My tissue box is empty. My account book states 10.40$ (not even enough for a pack). My life really suck.

Happy birthday, Celine. You are 21. Say Hello to your key.

So to you: Rohana, Abg Fazli, George Bush.

Im turning 21 and you are nice so...

I've decided to make a list of things I'd like to receive on my birthday because I am having a party and when you have a party, people always ask you what do you want for your birthday. I tried saying anything goes, i dont know, whatever you are buying but I seem to get more repeated questions in different way. Anyway, heres what I like!

robots love by robotgranny on Polyvore.com

Shoes are not the same by robotgranny on Polyvore.com

Out of order by robotgranny featuring Theory dresses

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As you can see, I really like robots and shoes and bags and apple stuffs so go along that line and you will be fine =] If you are overseas and could like to make me the most pampered girl on my birthday by sending me gifts, email me at robotgranny@hotmail.com. Thank you so much, people. I love yall!