Changes

Ever since, the demise of my relationship with Koh, I have been a lost puppy. I've been trying to find myself through many different medium and outlets. Those are, of course, to no avail. The past few weeks I've seen myself going to Him whenever I want something. I needed to fill up a void . He was there for me. I needed help and guidance . He answered . Gradually, I got into bigger trouble and once again, He saved me.

I made a promise. I returned back to church. It was honestly the best feeling ever. Suddenly, I don't remember why I stopped going. Its been 6 / 7 years? No, I've never been baptised and my parents are not christians, however I always knew and felt His power. I wasn't ashamed in believing in Him. I didn't know how to explain this to people.

Last week's service, nearly brought me to tears. I finally understood why people cry after service. Everything that happened for a reason. Getting into trouble was a sign. After all these topsy turvy, I found my way back into the Lord's arms. I am very grateful for that. He had never gave up on me.

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Sometimes I've no idea what am I doing with my life. There is only so much alcohol can take away. I miss you and I've never stop loving you . They say it takes time to heal, but I wonder how long exactly does it take , how much time do I really have . 

I may be very happy with A and A dotes on me the way he knows how to however it's not the same when I was with you .

As much as I don't want things to change , it must have change for a reason . For the better . I can only wallow in self pity because you are never coming back . 

Just so you know, whenever you are ready, I'm gonna be where you left me .

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I am no beauty blogger as most of you will know and heck, what do I really do about beauty when most of the days I look like this -

Well, I promise I used to look better - flawless skin, absence of double chin, no tissue in nose, etc. when I was younger.

Took me 3 hours to find an old photo without makeup, and without Koh. I look like shit but it was still good shit.

After 5 years with Koh, I don't feel pretty anymore. I gained so much weight over the course of the relationship and because of a change of lifestyle, my face broke out. Never in my 25 years of living, had I ever had pimples on my cheeks. Its always the forehead (whenever I cut bangs) or my chin (happens if I dont wash my mouth with water immediately after I eat. Dry or wet tissue doesnt work.) In fact, after the breakup, I was in a very dark place. I resented myself so much so I cry every waking moment.

Then, I picked myself up. I don't have market value because I told myself I dont have any. I dont have suitors because I stop putting myself out there. I needed to stop wallowing in self pity. I started to reconnect with friends and in order to feel good, I must look good. So I did what I dont ever do; put make up irregardless of where I am headed to.

Have I ever told you that it was one of my straight guy friends who told me what is a mascara and its uses when I was 19? I fail as a woman. Whenever I shop, Koh sometimes will randomly ask if I need any cosmetics. Before I could answer him, hes like "Iya, never mind. You also dont use one."

So I was saying, I dont know anything about beauty tips and tricks. I know how to apply makeup only because back in NAFA, it was one of my modules. Needless to say, I didnt do very well; was already counting blessings, thanking Him, and kowtowing to my lecturer for giving me a Pass, really.

2009, I had so much confident in myself. I guess now I realise how important skincare really is to a woman and how looking pretty makes one feel pretty as well. However, there is something missing. Something I never knew how to do even till today. I thank God for the presence of Ang in my life.

So this is me. This is me in August. I think I look pretty decent, but I am still lacking something.

Yup, STILL VERY CHIO IN MY OPINION. And boy, do I look good with white snowy brows!

I kid. Eyebrows make a person, to be very honest. I usually dont do my eyebrows unless I got them shaped by the kind Indian lady in Clementi who charges me 5$ every time I see her, because I dont know how to not overly do them or under do them. It's a skill I dont possess and I prolly will never ever possess.

Either way, here is me with some numbing cream. The gorgeous people at Allure Beauty Salon are the bomb. They were very patient and took me by the hand through every single procedure needed to give me my brows.

Even if I was giving her a death stare for telling me I have nice eyebrows. I have nice eyebrows because she was shaping it and designing something that will suit my face. These brow experts are personally handpicked and professionally trained therefore obviously I will have nice brows in her hands what, no?

This was just one side done. Brows really frame a person's face. A person without the right brows will definitely look untidy and less groomed. I indeed was a lost puppy.

So patient with me when the hiaoness in me came out and I wanted to just snap photos of my transformation every 5 minutes.

After brow expert was done messing with my brows, she will then ask if I am satisfied. WRONG PERSON TO ASK, TO BE HONEST. I had to get the rest (of the staff) to come over and fuss me like a princess. After alot of opinions (mostly saying how chio I am), this is how I would look like with brows on my face every day from today onwards.

In the utmost comfort and privacy for all treatments, you can come as a couple or with girlfriends or just #foreveralone to get pampered in their rooms. Allure Beauty Salon @ West Mall adds body treatments to their service menu so customers, like you and I, can revel in pampering services from top to toe!

Are you ready for the reveal?

Hi, want to date me? Pukecereal.jpeg No wonder Koh left me for someone else.

After I was all done with the embroidery. 

Here's my brow expert ! I thank you for giving life to my face.

One very happy girl.

I had no idea what I was in for, what a treat I was in for when Ang invited me to her spa day party. Perhaps Ang secretly feels that I dont have eyebrows and in dire need to get some else she wont hang out with me anymore. Anyone who knows me on a very personal level definitely knows that I am not one who will alter anything God has given me. However, having nicely drawn eyebrows every day is such a blessing.

But wait, the service doesnt stop here. My brow expert didnt just leave me hanging, not sure of how to take care of my eyebrows to keep them the way it is for as long as the embroidery ink last. Embroidery are not tattoos. I still do not have ink anywhere on my body.

With that, I give prize to these brow experts who helped find some confidence back in my life. Because of them, I finally have eyebrows and no one to make fun of me anymore. Because of them, I can throw away my eyebrow pencils.

We celebrated the new opening of Allure Beauty Salon @ West Mall with a bang! My first spa day party and it was so fun to be girly once in a while. Thank you, Ang. I love you forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever. Okay, if you are curious who Ang is, you must be new here. Ang is the official Ambassador of Allure Beauty! Miss Silver Ang, whom alot of my friends want to get to know, embodies the true spirit of Allure Beauty because she is so talented, smart and beautiful.

Must por a bit, else she dont love me. Kidding.

Next day, I can so confidently walk out of my house without makeup, without contacts. My eyebrows so sex.

With makeup, look even more sex.

So I took a photo everyday to see if my eyebrows are still there.

Yup, they definitely are still around.

I look good even after 3 hours of dodgeball.

Nadiah and I yesterday. After a month, my eyebrows still damn sex.

I've stop donning on makeup, unless I know its going to be a nights out or I am meeting new people. Don't want to scare them with bare face just yet, however I do feel that I look okay without makeup too! Thanks to the people at Allure Beauty *flying kissesssss

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I am a woman, and this is what I want -

Lately, there have been an influx of articles with list after list after list of Relationship Advices, Who to Date, How to be Dateable, etc (and they are still sprouting everywhere!). While I find myself agreeing (and nodding my head) to some of these articles, some times these articles does not fully apply on me. Therefore, for my future husband and self, please take note of the following;

What I, R.Celine Ng, really want -

1) Communication

This has always been my number 1. As a Gemini, I talk alot. I tell you about my daily life, I expect you to also share yours. Even if its the same old boring crap that been happening at work for the past 18 days, yes, I want to hear them. I believe its very unhealthy to bottle up your emotions. I should be the one you are sharing your anger and joy with, not your colleague(s) or the Auntie next door. We can NEVER go to bed angry.

2) Honesty

..is always the best policy. I don't like to be kept in the dark. If you want to be secretive about your life, go be a spy.

3) Understanding

Despite my love for communication, I hope in the long run, you are able to read me occasionally (especially when the situation needs you to). I mean, I reckon being together for a period of time,  I would be able to read your body language or even predict your next action. Thus, if you care for me, you would want to give me more, or all your attention. Bitches love attention.

4) Respect

It comes in many forms and applies to a lot of things. Just bear in mind that I am typically not your average MiinAhLiianZx on the streets. If I say no, it bloody hell means no. I might be princessy at times, but if I say no sex tonight, it really means sex is off the table for tonight. But you can spoon me to sleep every night.

5) To be able to be myself

Everyone has a past, a present, and obviously, my future is with you. I would love to hear/know all about your past (from ex girlfriends to second failed marriage to the time you randomly bought me a Lamborghini), share the present, and plan for the future. However, you cannot stop me from being me and from what I want to do in life.

Thus,

Dear Future Lover whom someday I would call mine,

Although we will be spending the rest of our lives together, I am still entitled to have my own set of homeboys who you will def get to meet and hang out with (of course I still get to have my lone time with them), my own girls night out which you will get to pick me up after I am done (will call you 30 mins in advance), and I get to go home to my dad any time I want (even if we are not residing in Singapore).

Above all the wants and needs of mine, I promise to keep you in mind and spare a thought for you as well. I am not a tough nut to crack, albeit it takes a lot of patience. Whoever you are, I thank you in advance for loving me despite my unconventional irrational occasionally unreasonable ways.

Love,
Me

p/s: I also want a 1.5 carat princess cut diamond of excellent quality sitting firmly on top of a rose gold set ring which will be staying put on my ring finger for as long as I am alive and married to you. Here's a photo for reference;

Ti-gers

Dont say I never wong you  ^^
Article idea courtesy of Silver .

First we had the bubble tea craze, then the donut craze, followed by GongCha/Koi craze , and here we are at the Siam Tiu* craze. The world is constantly changing its trend and I am at a crossroad. At every trend, I could understand each and every pro and cons, and I obviously took sides; like it or not. Nonetheless, every trend was toxic in its own little ways.. except the last - Siam Tiu. It's toxic as fuck.

Hollywood Thai Disco - Looks fun, meh?

Don't get me wrong. I dont hate Thailand. What is there is hate ? Everything is cheap there, and because its so near Singapore (mere 2 hours flight), I believe everyone agrees that its the perfect getaway for shopaholics. I have so many Thai friends sometimes its impossible to meet them all up on one trip.

Even finnfinnthebettertwin hearts Bangkok!

What I hate... is the idea of a Siam Tiu and its purpose. I've been to three different discos on three separate occasions and yup, my perspective of a Siam Tiu has never change. The working girls were mediocre, the music was shit, and worse of all, its always dramatic. However, I've never really had any problems with their existence. It takes two to clap - these girls, although on social visit pass, are just out to earn a living; decent or not. Men, horny enough, will just go for it.

I would like to think that if I am a guy, I would have better standards than this.

I dont ever remember ever telling myself or to my friends "such a great night. we should come here again." at the end of our drinking sessions. Unlike Zouk or Butter or even Sluttica.

Ultimately, almost all men are the same. This was where the problems I have with Siam Tiu started.

When my childhood friend (who is half Thai) got himself involved with a Thai girl, I was like "hey, he's going back to half of his roots". I was genuinely happy for him because he finally found love despite how dramatic his girlfriend's reaction was to my existence. I backed off naturally. This means no contact whatsoever with that friend whom I've known for many years whenever the girlfriend was in town or he's overseas with her.

I dont know where or how in the blue moon I've offended her but just the same, I couldnt stand the sight of her anyway. I learnt to live and respect my friend's decision. I even tried to be in the same room with her because I am bro enough but yah, some things just cannot be forced.

Note; I am not indicating that my friend's girlfriend is a gold digger. Please do not spread nasty 

rumours. 

Secretly, I always feel that these Thai working girls are here for the same reason - to earn more money. Then, because of one or two black sheeps who started dating them and showering them with more money, soon the trend of dating a Thai working girl ignited. What does that mean for us Singaporean girls who want to settle down with a Singaporean man? Shit, really. Shit.

Asians, Singaporeans in general imho, women have the tendency of wanting to dating White men, I get that. Perhaps we feel that they have more earning power hence due to the standard of living here, we succumb to dating someone whom we think can give us better lives. Singaporean men forever complaining about how gullible these women are. Now, the tables are turned. Singaporean men are suddenly the White men in Thai culture!

It must have been such a huge impact on every Singaporean men's ego.

So in recent events, one of my very very close friend got himself involved with a Thai girl too and he said to be very much in love with her despite knowing her for barely a month. He was with his girlfriend for nearly 5 years and broke things off with her so that he could bring the Thai girl home. He brought her home the very night she left. Needless to say, he's no longer in our lives.

We are still in mourning period and I came across this status posted by a stranger.. who is a guy, by the way. It hit home. The article rulings went -

To my dear friends who are addicted to Thai Clubs.

Thai Club Anti Gong Tao Rules:

No. 1 - Puying are here for work. They are not looking for a relationship with you.

No. 2 - Puying give you the Girlfriend Effect (GFE). Please do not mistake this for love.

No. 3 - Puying have a daily quota for Ladies Drinks. They will flirt with you to meet this quota.

No. 4 - Puying exchange their numbers so as to sms you "i miss you", "will you come find me"... It is their usual practice so don't think you are special.

No. 5 - It is quite common to bring Puying to supper after their work or even go out on their off days. They are just finding a guy to provide the free transport service, food, entertainment and shopping spree. Obviously they will treat u like their bf during such sessions.

No. 6 - Darling or teerak is easy for them to call out to you. Please realise that every customers to them can be a darling or teerak and don't feel that you are the only special one.

No. 7 - Do not prioritize them over your job, family and true friends.

No. 8 - Deep dive into your mind and ask yourself (Its love or lust?).

No. 9 - You ARE just another customer.

No. 10 - Hurt them rather than getting yourself hurt (That's the basis of most of the Thai songs out there 555).

No. 11 - Make them fall for you first.

No. 12 - Don't give them your real name.

No. 13 - Don't give them your address or home number.

No. 14 - Don't promise them anything.

No. 15 - Don't give them cash.

No. 16 - Don't reveal your pay.

No. 17 - When asked for ladies drink (LD) or flowers, tell them "Not today, going back soon, another day".

No. 18 - Fact: Singers make from $5K to 8K every month. Models/PRs earn from $8K to $10K every month. Those good ones get $15k and above. Plus branded luxury free give. They might be earning more money than you.

No. 19 - Do not believe their sad stories.

No. 20 - Their names is not their real names.

No. 21 - Do not send money to her back in Thailand.

No. 22 - If you both are in love, do be prepared to maintain a long distance relationship.

No. 23 - If you both are together, do be prepared that she will continue her work as a PR/Singer/Model.

No. 24 - Thai Culture is very different from Malaysian Culture. Be prepared to put in the 110% effort to work out the umpteen hurdles from family and otherwise.

No. 25 - Be prepared to support her and give her money to send home if you insist she not work as PR/Singer/Model. You will be supporting her parents, siblings, herself and yourself.

We are worried for this friend of ours but there is nothing we can do about it because he's a big boy. He has been with the same girl since he was 20; prolly many things other guys his age had experience but he didnt get the chance to because he was living a very "married" life. That's the excuse I've given him to make things easier on my side, however they had a pact: "He could do whatever he wants outside as long as he knows where is Home". I doubt anyone in the right mind would not be happy with that pact.

Bitch please, we cant please everyone.

I thank lucky stars and count blessings everyday that Laode doesnt like Siam Tiu as well. Its not like no one asks him, or he doesnt like it because I dont like it. Its just great news for me as I will never have to catch him in the act and I know that wherever he goes, its always some place decent. So ladies, if your men likes to hang around places like this because "beer are cheap", "my friend works there", etc, please just beware and monitor closely. Don't fall victim to some of these cunning bitches.

* Siam Tiu means Thai disco