Obviously untitled

Sometimes I've no idea what am I doing with my life. There is only so much alcohol can take away. I miss you and I've never stop loving you . They say it takes time to heal, but I wonder how long exactly does it take , how much time do I really have . 

I may be very happy with A and A dotes on me the way he knows how to however it's not the same when I was with you .

As much as I don't want things to change , it must have change for a reason . For the better . I can only wallow in self pity because you are never coming back . 

Just so you know, whenever you are ready, I'm gonna be where you left me .